I don't want to speak to soon. I don't want to jump too far ahead of myself, for there is still much to be done. But I don't want to look back and regret not savoring what could possibly be my final Spring Break. If you know my life direction and can do the math, yes, that means I'm actually trying to graduate in December instead of May '05.

I made the decision after speaking with my advisor a couple of weeks ago. We were discussing my possible/probable thesis when he casually asked me if I was planning on graduating in December. I responded with what must have looked like a "what the ??" expression on my face and a confused "uhh, I didn't know I could graduate then." We went over the requirements and what I would need to do in way of a thesis and I realized it was very possible.

And it really got me going.

Well, sort of.

It really got me excited about the possibilities. I started paying more attention to the "Jobs" link on every corporate webpage I happen to casually visit. I started thinking about what I should and shouldn't put on my resum? (No, I don't already have one). I started thinking about what car I'll drive.

But first things first.

I have to get through this semester. Half way there.

I have to work hard this summer and perhaps get the bulk of my thesis work done. Easier said than done.

I have to get through 6-9 hours of classes in the fall, and knock out 6 research hours sometime between now and then. Easy enough.

I have to have confidence in myself and know that I have a pretty decent personality when I let it show through. And I have to remember that I have been hired before and that someone will want to hire me again based on my qualifications and personality and not solely based on a piece of paper that will put forth a moderate grade-point average, little work experience besides healthcare service and lots and lots of "research" hours. Crap-shoot.

But most importantly, I have to realize that I'm here because God wants me here. I must remember that each day has been laid out for me; that God is doing His part and all that's left is for me to do mine. And right now, I know that my most important task is to just be patient.

"Therefore do not be anxious for tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Mt 6:34